The Spiral Of Life

A journey of healing is a commitment to being present as much as is possible at any given point along the way.

Through this awareness, I have found myself revisiting old behaviors and facing the same emotional triggers periodically throughout my journey. This can be frustrating. No matter how much work I do, I always seem to attract potential for the same experiences over and over again.

Just last week I could feel myself beginning to procrastinate and couldn’t understand where it was coming from. I decided to let it be for a few days as I was aware we were still going through the process of the full moon.

But it persisted. So much in fact, that I began to procrastinate about procrastinating... You can imagine the potential for this to become quite frustrating. I decided I would confide in a close friend who helps me to redirect in times like these. After a few minutes of talking with him, I remembered the whole point of why I was going through this.

I remembered a vision that I'd had while in an Ayahuasca ceremony this year. I was stuck on a thought process loop, which was comprised of little thought process loops. Loops on loops…. For the life of me, I couldn’t figure out how to get off the process. In fact, the experience got so intense for me that the Shaman had to come and help me to relax and focus.

For the days and weeks following this event, I couldn’t fully understand what the vision was showing me.

I did however understand that I, like almost every person alive, have subconscious belief systems that keep me engaged in recurring behaviors and thought patterns. This much was clear. But I couldn’t understand how to get off the loop without help. I saw every recurring pattern that I engage with, every behavior and every projection.

Unfortunately, I got no answer right away. It took me some time and a lot of being present and aware of myself to finally get what was being shown to me. Finally, after this discussion with my friend, it clicked.

The reality of my vision, and indeed my own reality is, while I grow and expand, my world around me evolves also. Therefore, there is no loop. My realization of the truth left me speechless. I realized that the spiral of life is of course present in my experience. I am part of the spiral of life. I AM the spiral of life!

When I revisited my Ayahuasca experience, I realized on closer inspection that my vision was in fact a spiral. I was being shown my evolution as I spiraled through behaviors and encounters, each behavior being affected by each encounter and each encounter being affected by each behavior, continuously spiraling and evolving through my entire life, on every level. The realization that the encounters and behaviors would continue to be there, ever evolving with me along my journey, shocked me a little. This was a game changer. Doing the work to evolve through these situations is what it is all about!

With this new perspective, I am able to welcome all recurring behaviors back in for reworking, healing and growing. Now I realize with each revolution of the spiral, I grow and expand and therefore change the behaviors and thought processes. Just like diluting a drink over and over many times, with each revolution, the healing process dilutes the behavior a little more, until it becomes unrecognizable, and in time, possibly even a strength. Which in turn eventually renders the encounter stagnant and nonrecurring. What a breakthrough, that is, until the next round of course. I pray that I can remember to remember this the next time.

This spiral of life is always present, it IS life.

We can choose to be present and aware of our input into our own and indeed other peoples personal spiral or not, either way the spiral will continue to r-evolve. How our lives evolve is entirely our own choice. There is no end, no finish line, no goal!!! There is only change, growth and the constant Revolution of Evolution.

I stand strong and tall as I walk through the valley of my soul, the smoldering embers of the victims pain and suffering behind me. As I walk away, Humbled, Empowered and Victorious, I walk  into my heart remembering how beautiful i truly am.

December 6, 2022
Andrew Mee
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This beautiful place of Iquitos has a magic around it that I have yet to be able to put into words.

It is pretty much run down to a level that would be condemned in Ireland. There is extreme poverty and anyone without a job has to sell something to make ends meat. There are majestic wetlands and gigantic flowing rivers. Giant butterflies and tiny lizards.

Every night there is a huge gathering of local people on the boulevard to chat and laugh and watch the comedians, musicians and artists who come there to make a few Soles in tips.

The charm and character of this place is just mesmerising. Of course it is the people.

I have often been to a city and remarked on its beauty but was astounded by the arrogance or ignorance of the people.

Iquitos is the first city I've visited that is the complete opposite, it is wrecked and run into the ground, but I absolutely love it and more importantly I love the people in it who hold this beautiful energy here!

There is at present a tourism industry in Iquitos which has been dubbed Ayahuasca tourism.

Ayahuasca is a psychoactive substance that has been brewed for many 1000's of years by the native tribes people in order to seek guidance from their spirits for many things. There are many other plant mixtures that they drink but Ayahuasca is the drink of choice for tourists because of its effects to the psyche.

Nowadays and for many years now, westerners have come here for this guidance from the local Shamans, the guidance of choice now being health and well being.

Hence the term Ayahuasca tourism.

There is a dangerous knock on affect of this though. As the local population is so poor and many are starving, there seems to be an abundance of shamans walking the boulevard punting for your business. Many offering ayahuasca ceremonies for knock down prices. Really no different than drug dealers if I'm honest. Most of them are irresponsible in their approach and really don't care about your well being.

I do feel for these Shamans though, because they are only doing what they have to in order to survive, but that shouldn't be at the potential cost of another persons life.

Ayahuasca is an extremely powerful psychoactive substance that digs down into the depths of the mind to unearth broken parts of the human psyche in order to allow the patient to heal and live a better standard of life as a result.

It is simple really, but in the wrong hands, this powerful indigenous brew can kill. The indigenous people will actually rarely allow a first comer to drink straight away without going on a strict diet for a number of days before hand because the effects of the western diet when mixed with Ayahuasca can be potentially fatal.

Unfortunately a lot of these Del Boy Shamans as I call them, really only care about the notes in your wallet. So any wounded tourist coming in search of healing should be extremely careful in their approach to their healing. Cheap and cheerful could cost you your life. I am of course willing to guide anyone to the right healer. Just drop me an email and I will help to arrange the best possible treatment for you.

Even in knowing this though, I too got taken in by a trickster, a less than worthy healer. But in this case, he was very well accomplished and I later found out he is a very well know man but for all the wrong reasons.

This man was in fact a Brujo.

A Brujo is one who practices black magic. This one in particular, goes around the country stealing people's medicine, magic, healing power, gifts or whatever you are more comfortable calling it.

Now, personally I was always of the mind set that one had to be willing to give in to such magic or darkness in order to be succumbed by it. But I was wrong, well momentarily anyway.

Anyway here is a short account of what happened, I will keep the intricate details for my book 😉,

I went to the ceremoy with some friends which was very authentic, and really nice. When the ceremony was in full swing, this man in question sang me one of his healing songs in his native tongue. It was very beautiful indeed. I lay back and journeyed till the early hours and fell asleep. The next morning I woke and felt very weird. On top of that I was absolutely destroyed in insect bites, well over 200 I'd say. Wow!!

So a few days passed and I was getting a bigger and bigger sense that something wasn't right. I couldn't write any poetry, no song lyrics could come to mind, no blog post ideas popping in and even my hands weren't getting hot anymore. It was so weird.

So as the days rolled by and one conversation passed over another, the topic came up about this guy and the ceremony was mentioned. Well what I was told was jaw dropping. He took my medicine!! I couldn't believe it!!

So another few days went by and I was trying to figure out how to get this sorted and all of a sudden one night here in my apartment I decided I was going to sort it right here and now.

So i went to my room and closed my eyes to meditate. I called in all my training that I had learned down through the years to perform a cleansing on myself. I said my prayers and cleared my Chakras like My reiki master showed me, then I released any blocks from any lower energy forms from head to toe, my vibration was boosting up at this stage, I could feel my skin burning, and with another sweep and calling in all my guides, my helpers and archangels and any unemployed angels, I cocooned myself in 7 of my choosen angels wings, a shield of the arcana. This was the icing on the cake thanks to my IIY teacher 😊.

Well all I can say is wow. I was back. I felt really present and back to myself after it. One thing that struck me during the ceremony was the smell of human feces. I later found out that that is a classic Brujeria sign.

So now I am delighted to realize that I was originally right, I can resist black dark energy, but I got lazy with my protection. It is something we must practice every day.

Haha this story for many of you may seem far fetched, but there are many ways to look at this scenario.

This way of life is now my chosen profession and my gift. There are tricksters in every walk of life. They are there to test us and push our buttons. How much do you want this way of life? How much crap are you going to put up with before you step into your power? It's always been up to us haha!!!

We have to look after ourselves 😀

We must step into our own power....

What is your hidden power?

Free your true Magic 😊

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