Coming Home

Coming home to yourself or your space after being away for some time can be a very daunting experience. I have been on my way home since I entered this reality more than 40 years ago. I do feel to a great extent that I know who I am and more or less where I am headed, yet, each time I return to my home land from my travels abroad, I feel quite out of place, like i don't belong.

Over the years I have learned that, even though we have left our home for a time to grow or expand ourselves in some way, what catches us off guard is how normal everything is when we return. The uneasiness sets in when we actually see the change that has happened within us and how our familiar world reacts to our new vibration and view of the world.

Familiar, yet, unfamiliar. We are aware of the world we left behind, everything is just as it was, but its different in some way. For some time, it can be difficult to understand what it is until one day, we finally see it. The familiarity is with what we remember, the unfamiliarity is with our new vibration. With our new vibration, our old world looks totally different. We see things we didn't see before. We notice certain behaviors in the people around us that we had previously accepted as normal, and to some extent might not have even been aware of. And this is where the real work begins.....

To maintain a new vibration while surrounded by the old one is no easy task. We must find a place of acceptance, forgiveness and surrender within ourselves, for ourselves and for the people and situations around us. Remembering to remember is one of the hardest things to do.

Don't run if you can help it, but don't just sit there in pain either. Allow each part of the change to unfold naturally. Don't force anything. Just allow. Its easier said than done I know, but it will get easier with practice. And that's exactly what this is, practice. We are practicing at getting better at life. If something isn't working, then stop doing it and try something else.

We are creatures of habit. More often than not, we are unaware of what it is that is standing in our way of growth, which is OK, we cant know what we don't know. We have these habits that have been learned for one reason or another and we continue them unaware. But once we do know, and see, if we don't do anything about it then we are to blame, all by ourselves. Do not blame others for not seeing, this only causes resentment.

Be the change you want to see in the world and allow that change to be seen by those who are ready to grow. Do not force anything on the unwilling. We all want the best for our loved ones, but who are we to say what is in their path and karma, we cant know. So just be the change and allow them to see by themselves. If it is for them then they will see it. Happiness is contagious...

Find something joyful to do everyday. We all have something we enjoy doing. So do it, and allow yourself to enjoy it without judgment.

I have found that by doing these few things, I continue to grow and expand to the max that my container of reality can hold. I've gotten used to feeling uncomfortable and staying in the firing line to see what happens. More often than not, the situation is a trigger for me to work through, and once i face it, it just goes away.... simple!

So be gentle with yourself and the world around you while returning home to yourself. Be brave, be strong, be free, but most importantly be kind and gentle to yourself and the new world that you see unfolding before your eyes.

All my love and blessings....

Published
December 6, 2022
Author
Andrew Mee
Category
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Mastering Discipline

Throughout my entire life, discipline has always seemed like such a chore. I could never focus on one thing long enough to become a master at it. I haven't mastered any skill that I love to do.

I was never into sports as a child and exercise was never my thing. But I have always loved music. And in later years now since I've finished school, I love to read and learn new things. But as a result of never having the discipline to master any new skills while growing up, I am unable to focus my attention now. This is something that I had come to accept about myself but had vowed to make a change at some point. But true to form, my lack in discipline assured that I would struggle with this. A never ending loop of failure to master.

I have recently begun singing mantras. When I say recently, I mean today. Today is the first day of my discipline process. After having such an amazing weekend of healing ceremonies, I have learned a few things about myself. One such lesson was the lack of discipline that I put upon myself in order to better myself.

It is said that the constant repetition of a mantra can heighten our senses and awareness. I’m pretty sure it does indeed do exactly that, with practice, but for now my focus is for the purposes of discipline. Once the discipline is maintained, the practice will emerge. I am eternally grateful for the lessons I have received through working with plant medicines.

Through this work with plant-based healing medicines, I have caught a glimpse of what it is to be my full true self. With practice and discipline, I believe these mantras will help me in my process of expanding my being beyond what I know to be me and who I am.

The amazing realization that you are more than you think you are is quite profound. We think we are, as humans; the body, the mind, and in some cases, the soul/spirit. In most cases we believe we are a culmination of our family, friends, job, where we live, where we go, what hobbies we enjoy and what our spiritual beliefs are. A short story on these topics would amount to the average person’s belief in who they are. But the truth of it is we are so much more than all of it put together.

This past few days has helped me with my own view on this topic. I used to believe I was a father, a brother, a son, an uncle, a grandson, a musician, a singer, a writer, a good person trying to make a difference however small it was etc etc and the list goes on. But the truth is I am much more than any and all of those things.

As I have mentioned, I have been fortunate enough to catch a glimpse of who I am. The I that I am is so vast and expansive that no words can describe.

If you could imagine what it would be like to squeeze an elephant through the eye of a needle, then you would have some idea of how difficult it is for a spirit to enter the human form. The sheer vastness of our being-ness pre-earth, cannot be condensed into our 3D physical form. No matter how pure a human being is, they are still physical, and so therefore cannot contain their fullest potential. That said, our fullest potential in our human form is indeed impressive. We have yet to even come close to it. The achievements in the past of our fellow earthlings were all based in ego. This in itself is the biggest and heaviest limit we posses. The monks and sages of the world would be the purest of us and yet, I believe we have so much more to learn and to let go of.

With each layer of trauma that I work through and with each layer of pain that I come to terms with, that glimpse of my fullest potential expands a little more. With each expansion, I can get a sense and feel, to some small extent, of the next level of expansion before I experience it. So, I know there’s always more to remember, more to learn. I am more than I have ever imagined before, and more than I can even imagine now. The I that I am, in this human form, is only the finger tip of my true essence. I am everything and more than I could ever imagine myself to be.

With a daily practice I can expand my awareness, lighten my trauma and pain body, and thus expand the emptiness inside so more of my essence and light can enter, remembering more and more, who I truly am. This disciplined process can help me with procrastination and limiting my ego with regards to music, singing, writing and everything that I want to learn at this moment. Our ego tells us we are no good. So, if I start the day by reminding myself of how much I can remember with regards to who I am, well that will shut that little noise up with discipline and practise.

I am not perfect. I am finding my way.

Day by day, unravelling and unfolding, healing and expanding.

Namaste...

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