We Are One

A journey of healing is one of great mystery. Going to that place, to the unknown, to find that sweet spot where we hold the trauma associated with our pain and suffering. It is truly a process of complete trust in what lies ahead. We must trust as we have lost connection with our true self, and so the journey begins, blindfolded, fumbling around in the dark for something that feels like home. And therein lies the key to the process of finding one’s center. With eyes closed in a darkened room we must trust what we feel, so too must we dedicate ourselves and trust our healing journey with our eyes closed, open our hearts and our senses to what feels familiar, to what feels good and to what feels empowering. We must trust ourselves, our body and our soul, to know the way without judgment. We must trust in our pain, our wounds and our trauma, to teach us about unconditional love and forgiveness. We must trust in the process to bring us back home to our one true self, to the inner child, who was abandoned all those years ago by oneself. With eyes closed, we must find our way home.

These past few days, I myself have chosen to take a further trusting leap into the unknown. After receiving many signs from my outer self, from my world as I see it, it was apparent there was a change coming. As I have gone through energetic changes before, I know there are two options. I can either let the change happen to me, or I can be the change. Of course, being the change is much more exciting and much less traumatic, so that was the obvious option in my experience. I began with a small ceremony the day before last to welcome in any of my guides and to set my intention. I ran a bath and used some essential oils and flower aromas to help relax my body and mind to allow me to meditate and connect mind, body and soul. Yesterday I became the music that I was creating. It was beautifully healing to create music. It helped with the process greatly. Today, day three of ceremony, I ran another bath to close the healing space. I used the same oils and aromas as before and decided I would use the pendulum to tap into the hidden mind. Believe it or not, we already know everything in and around our lives from who is good for our energy, to what food doesn't agree with our bodies. We just choose, through our subconscious belief systems, what we want in our lives, and what to ignore, regardless of whether it is good for us or not. I wanted to ask my subconscious mind or hidden mind, what was ready to be released. The tricky part is, I can only get a yes or a no answer. So, the question must be right. Through meditation, I can get a good sense of the direction of questioning. I was drawn to my Root Chakra for questioning. This is where fight or flight response emanates from. This is where our basic survival instincts come from. Our relationships, security, truth, justice, basic needs, compassion, strength, trust and nurture of self all emanate from here, and so is the beginning of all energy in being. I wasn’t surprised to see it pop up during a period of balancing. To find balance in being, we must first feel grounded and secure. I asked the relevant questions which I felt were specific for this piece of work and released the energy with the aid of the pendulum. Wow! What an amazing piece of work. I feel complete bliss and contentment after gifting myself this work. I was faced with some challenging truths about my life and some reliefs too. I had told myself some lies, surprise surprise!! I feel so lucky to be part of this world today. The changes I am embodying in myself, I see every day in the world outside. Our mother Earth is healing herself, and so too am I. We are one. I was not born ON Earth, I was born FROM Earth. We share the same energy, the same elements, the same water, the same air. We are all children of Earth. Embody this experience, close your eyes, heal yourself, and once again see the world as it truly is….. It is YOU!

The visual beauty of this world is so mesmerizing that we can get distracted from what is important, from what feels good. The irony that lies in the unbalancing of our senses tells the true story behind the world as we live in it today. When one focuses on what looks beautiful without feeling the beauty in their whole being, the view becomes less interesting after only a short time. Then something new must be found to excite the eyes, and on and on goes the merry-go-round. But when one looks, feels, smells, tastes, hears and embodies the view, one could spend an entire lifetime in that moment. Time stops. When we find balance, we see the truth.... you are the view and the view IS you, we are one.

Now when you look at the view, you see its entire beauty, you can feel it, you can smell it, you can hear it. You can sense it in you and you in it. Now you can see its true depth, Your true depth. Now there is balance outside and in. When you realize that which you see and feel are one in the same, you have found balance. This is the journey……. There is no separation…….

IT IS ALL YOU

Published
December 6, 2022
Author
Andrew Mee
Category
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The Spiral Of Life

A journey of healing is a commitment to being present as much as is possible at any given point along the way.

Through this awareness, I have found myself revisiting old behaviors and facing the same emotional triggers periodically throughout my journey. This can be frustrating. No matter how much work I do, I always seem to attract potential for the same experiences over and over again.

Just last week I could feel myself beginning to procrastinate and couldn’t understand where it was coming from. I decided to let it be for a few days as I was aware we were still going through the process of the full moon.

But it persisted. So much in fact, that I began to procrastinate about procrastinating... You can imagine the potential for this to become quite frustrating. I decided I would confide in a close friend who helps me to redirect in times like these. After a few minutes of talking with him, I remembered the whole point of why I was going through this.

I remembered a vision that I'd had while in an Ayahuasca ceremony this year. I was stuck on a thought process loop, which was comprised of little thought process loops. Loops on loops…. For the life of me, I couldn’t figure out how to get off the process. In fact, the experience got so intense for me that the Shaman had to come and help me to relax and focus.

For the days and weeks following this event, I couldn’t fully understand what the vision was showing me.

I did however understand that I, like almost every person alive, have subconscious belief systems that keep me engaged in recurring behaviors and thought patterns. This much was clear. But I couldn’t understand how to get off the loop without help. I saw every recurring pattern that I engage with, every behavior and every projection.

Unfortunately, I got no answer right away. It took me some time and a lot of being present and aware of myself to finally get what was being shown to me. Finally, after this discussion with my friend, it clicked.

The reality of my vision, and indeed my own reality is, while I grow and expand, my world around me evolves also. Therefore, there is no loop. My realization of the truth left me speechless. I realized that the spiral of life is of course present in my experience. I am part of the spiral of life. I AM the spiral of life!

When I revisited my Ayahuasca experience, I realized on closer inspection that my vision was in fact a spiral. I was being shown my evolution as I spiraled through behaviors and encounters, each behavior being affected by each encounter and each encounter being affected by each behavior, continuously spiraling and evolving through my entire life, on every level. The realization that the encounters and behaviors would continue to be there, ever evolving with me along my journey, shocked me a little. This was a game changer. Doing the work to evolve through these situations is what it is all about!

With this new perspective, I am able to welcome all recurring behaviors back in for reworking, healing and growing. Now I realize with each revolution of the spiral, I grow and expand and therefore change the behaviors and thought processes. Just like diluting a drink over and over many times, with each revolution, the healing process dilutes the behavior a little more, until it becomes unrecognizable, and in time, possibly even a strength. Which in turn eventually renders the encounter stagnant and nonrecurring. What a breakthrough, that is, until the next round of course. I pray that I can remember to remember this the next time.

This spiral of life is always present, it IS life.

We can choose to be present and aware of our input into our own and indeed other peoples personal spiral or not, either way the spiral will continue to r-evolve. How our lives evolve is entirely our own choice. There is no end, no finish line, no goal!!! There is only change, growth and the constant Revolution of Evolution.

I stand strong and tall as I walk through the valley of my soul, the smoldering embers of the victims pain and suffering behind me. As I walk away, Humbled, Empowered and Victorious, I walk  into my heart remembering how beautiful i truly am.

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